How long were you filming the family? How was the cinematographic edition, did you have a lot of material?
Initially, I was filming for 5 months for the research and production stage. I had a lot of material and it quickly grew overwhelming. When I entered post production and began to shape the story, I noticed some missing gaps in the storyline and continued shooting for 2 more weeks. After releasing the film, I stayed in touch with Yasmine who still wanted to continue making the film. More than one year later, I began to film them again as their lives had went through major changes that both Yasmine and I felt were crucial to the story. I began filming again for about 3 months, unconsecutively, and I am now going back into post-production to work on a director’s cut.
The sequence that stands out in the movie is where Yasmine works as a clown. What was this sequence to record and what does it mean for you?
This sequence was the most important one for me in the film because I was first introduced to Yasmine as a clown. After hearing her story about being in her mothers shoes, I was fascinated by the juxtaposition of her making a living by bringing joy to others— especially children—while dealing with her own internal struggles. The idea of having to put on a mask and perform happiness while facing something very different inside really struck me. For me, the film wouldn’t have felt complete without that scene. Initially, my approach was to focus on her life as a clown, but it naturally evolved into a story about motherhood and the questions that come with it regarding nature and nurture as I allowed the characters to actively shape the narrative with me. Filming that sequence was really difficult—part of why it only appears once in the film. We were repeatedly denied access to accompany Yasmine and film her at parties by the hosts. That challenge, though frustrating, became my fuel to keep pushing until I got what I needed to portray her story as honestly as possible.
With what sensation do you want to leave the viewer with the final sequence in which the whole family paints the room of a very striking blue color?
The final sequence was intentionally meant to feel uncertain and incomplete. The fate of the characters lingers, raising more questions than answers, much like their real lives: uncertain, unpredictable, unresolved. That lingering feeling is exactly what I hoped to leave the viewer with; a sense that they haven’t had enough of this family’s story, that something is still hanging in the air. For me, it’s important to engage the audience both intellectually and emotionally rather than simply providing them with information. The films that have always lasted for me where the ones that spiked feelings and thoughts beyond the screen through conversations. In the final scene, the family paints their mother’s room in blue, representing a blue sky with a moon in the center as their own way of saying the goodbye they never had the chance to say. While they’re no longer on the same land as their mother, they’re still surrounded by the same sky — whether above it or under it. It’s also a farewell to their home, which they have to leave behind. It’s a quiet, soft & personal ritual that held both grief and beauty, and I wanted to leave the viewer in that in-between space.
How is to be a woman’s young film director in Saudi Arabia? How has it been the distribution of the movie?
Being a young female filmmaker in Saudi Arabia is actually a very enriching experience. The film industry here is still relatively new, which means there are plenty of growth opportunities—especially for women who want to share their stories and amplify their voices. The main challenge I’ve encountered is specifically in the documentary field, where there’s still some lack of understanding around the different forms documentaries can take. People will often assume all documentaries follow a reportage style, which can affect local audience demand and, as a result, influence funding and distribution opportunities. My film was distributed locally through independent platforms such as arthouse cinemas and private screenings with cultural institutes, which led to some really meaningful connections with the audience. However, it wasn’t selected for local film festivals. Interestingly, I found more demand and acceptance for the film regionally and internationally, where there was a deeper understanding of cinéma vérité and a recognition of the urgency in documentary storytelling—where production value isn’t necessarily the top priority. I’m actively trying to help shape the documentary landscape in Saudi Arabia by working in independent cinema programming and mentoring aspiring documentary filmmakers. I believe growth is always a collaborative effort.